Hope

Life is wonderful, it’s so fragile and yet resistant, boring yet exciting, simple yet complex.
Every second, billions live, billions die, billions evolve.

I find it funny that, even though we (humans) are perhaps the most complex living organism, we still follow the non-negotiable cycle: birth, evolve, die.
You could do pretty much everything in your power to not follow it, you will. Some will call it fate, saying something among the lines of everything is written somewhere by someone, some will not agree. This question is ultimately just a quest, a quest of meaning.

I had the chance to find early in my life a true passion that allows me to find meaning when getting up in the morning, I’m pretty sure after 10 years of doing it that I’ll be still doing it in 50 years.

Early on, I thought that was all there was to it. You just get to do what you’re passionate about, so here I was, doing what I loved, building cool things.

However, and quite early in my life, others had problems with me about things that weren’t my passion.
The way I communicate, the way I live, the way I do things. I really thought I could focus on what i loved and ignore the first.

Everyone has flaws and everyone adapt to other’s flaws, why would I need to fix my flaws then ?

This is egocentricity at worst, flawed thinking at best: I was wrong because I refused to evolve. It doesn’t matter who’s wrong whose right, at the end the only thing that should matter is evolving.

It was hard to admit, I thought I could just wait until I found other people like me, who could understand me as I was. Why did it always have to be me that needed to change?

Because that’s what we do, we evolve, every day, whenever we want it or not.
We should strive to become a better person tomorrow as we were yesterday, step by step, day by day. The result will never be instantaneous, but we should march on.

You can only hope that tomorrow will see a better version of yourself.